I Need A Corrector

They say that a person's feeling can be described through words. What is it that tells a person's current feeling? The words used, the style of the sentence. Or the adjectives. Because right now, I'm writing this in tears. They've stopped for now, and I'm having a terrible nose block and headache.

You see, if you were to read the first few lines, could you tell my thoughts, my situation? Only when I mentioned about myself crying did you realise that I'm in pain. Only when I sound out does my thoughts reach others. So its more like, I'm hitting a wall. After hitting do I feel the pain, other than that it remains that, silent, oblivious to my agony.

I hate this. i hate relationships that's feelings are shown only when sounded out. Unfortunately, it seems I'm in plenty of them. I'm sure that my sarcasm or rather my name calling harassment might have caused a few to sob, but how would i know if I weren't told. You might say that I should have realise it but how would I realise it when I haven't been given a chance to understand a person? I guess I'm lacking the self conscious on what is funny and what is over the top.

Its a two way relationship, if you don't say a thing, I'll never. You might think that I ought to have realise it, then perhaps you're wrong. Perhaps i'm not the sharpest knife when it comes to such a topic. I don't need comforting, I need someone to point my mistakes. I don't need a comforter, I need a corrector.